another crappy day

it's hard to believe a person can sleep as much as i have in the last 36 hours. 48 even. i'm not even sure... my joints are so unbelievably painful, and i just can't seem to get up once awake. i'm second guessing my decision to go north. i don't want to avoid moving ahead, but i also feel like being in this apartment is just draining me away to nothingness. i can't seem to find any reason to leave, as important as any reason seems. tomorrow should finally bring about an errand, as today i ran out of pain medication for the degu & rabbit. i wouldn't wish this kind of physical pain on my worst enemy, let alone the ones i love, so tomorrow i'll have to venture out to the clinic for a refill, maybe i'll have the strength to get a few more things done while out, and feel a little better. right now i can barely type because the fingers on my left hand aren't working. ugh.